Monday, December 22, 2008

Update......on the bun.

I had a doctors appt today, and things are good. Afterwards I always call Jason (if he is unable to come) and tell him what the doctor said. Today without thinking the first thing I said was "were having a baby" and he kinda freaked a little, I quickly added not today, but soon. Poor thing, I did not mean to startle him, guess I should watch how I word things now that we are coming much closer to the day. Anyways, doctor stated today that she has dropped and that I am one centimeter. Both of which don't mean a lot.... but at least I am making some progress. I will take it.
I then went out to my mom's to get my hair trimmed, it is so nice that she does this for me. I find it to be one of the greatest things that my mom and I could just talk forever, and generally about anything and everything. I think it is a great day when you learn what a good friend your mother is. I think that this conclusion came to me when Jason and I moved to Texas a few years back. My mom and I would talk almost everyday and this is still true. I find it to be one of my favorite blessings. I am very lucky to have received a similar situation with my mother in law as well. I feel that because Jason and I have parents that we get along with and the get along with each other so well it make our marriage stronger and healthier. (Not saying that someone with a different situation has a weaker marriage, I just think this is one of the aspects that makes ours stronger, each to their own you know.)
This past weekend, Saturday was spent all day with Jason's family, eating playing games, and enjoying each others company. It was so wonderful. Jason and I live a good little distance from his brother and sister. This kinda stinks because we don't get to see as much of them as we would like, this goes for our niece and nephew as well. So getting the day with everyone was well needed. I had so much fun listening and watching the innocence of these two kids. It makes us long for Kylie to be here even more. My nephew, who loves to come to our house, mainly because we have 4-wheelers he loves to ride, told me that when Kylie came that he would teach her how to ride. I am under the impression that he thinks she is going to come ready to play and ride with him, instead of tiny and needing to grow. I love the way kids think. I really was a great time by all, and I am grateful for that day.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Lots going on

Well as in most peoples lives right now there is a lot going on. We are no exception, I guess. Weekly check up with Doc shows that I am still pregnant..... I am headed in the right direction, things are all good and on schedule. I have been having braxton hicks (fancy word for false contractions) they feel really funny and I generally laugh to myself when I get them. I love the feeling of being pregnant, its like you are never alone and you always have someone with you. When she moves I smile or laugh like its our own personal joke, I will miss that. But I am sure that when she arrives she will give me plenty of reasons to laugh and smile. So we have been playing her music at night to get her used to somethings. My sister in law Jenny made us some really great Cd's, they are lullaby versions of Pink Floyd (husbands fave),and Cold Play. We have found she loves to listen to Cold Play, whether it is the lullaby version or the real thing, she starts moving and squirming in there, it is so cute. And puts the biggest smile on Jason's face, its kinda funny she loves the music that was played at our wedding....

The next busy thing going on is Christmas, I cant believe it has come so quickly this year. I have to admit I am not as in the gift giving/receiving spirit of Christmas this year. I don't know if it is because I am pregnant, tired all the time, or if it is due to the overwhelming economical times that everyone is experiencing. I have just not been in the present spirit of Christmas. Now that is not to say that I am defiantly in the mood for Christmas, the lights and music, being with family and friends, Christmas eve service and all those things I am so in the mood for. Both sides of my families are doing something really cool this year. We are spending an entire day together, playing games, watching movies, snacking and just being together. I am real excited about this. We are going to Jason's parents in the morning, I feel like such a little kid............I cant wait. The two days that I spend with my families just hanging out is way better than a tree full of things that I don't really need.

So in other things that are keeping us busy, how about getting ready for all the changes that will so soon be taking place. I think that Jason and I are pretty set with all things here at the house. The nursery is done, although I am having trouble with two certain cats whom think that the large comfortable crib is now there new bed. I think Mica feels that after living in the house for three years we were kind enough to finish her room, she is in there constantly.... we have to work on that. Our bedroom has been redecorated and looks amazing, I am proud to say after owning the home for five years we have real curtains in our bedroom and not ones that I fashioned out of old bedsheets, not that there is anything wrong with using bedsheets, but it feels so grown up to have real curtains. We also put the pack in play in our room which is where Kylie will sleep for the first few months, this the cats also feel is there bed, and they are grateful we finally gave them a proper place to sleep in our room..........we have to work on that. The dogs are having a few issues with all the baby stuff. Well for the most part I am not sure they understand much of anything. The boxer Jasmine is having some anxiety issues. I am home a lot more than I have ever been before..........probably the reason I am blogging. Now every time I get ready to leave the house she follows me all around whining. The while I am gone she proceeds to... well she has a dog tear'um up party as hep would say. Lets just say that the score, if we were keeping one is Beaner -3 Snowmen-0. Its kinda sad I feel bad scolding her and it does no good. It is going to be a wild trip with all these animals and a new baby, I hope she can hold her own.

Anyway with every ones lives being so busy and full I will finish with a saying that I really like.

Lord, please help me not to be so busy making a living I forget to make a life.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Day at the dotors

Well today starts my weekly OB visit. What this really means is that we are nearing the end of pregnancy and headed for the big day. It was very exciting well the thought not all the dotorish stuff. But I did have the pleasure of seeing our beautiful baby on ultrasound, we found out she is just a little over five pounds currently and looking very good. There is nothing quite like seeing that little heart beat on a video screen, it is truly amazing. It honestly feels like we were just having our first visit with the fertility office in Cincinnati, I can remember how anxious we were at the possibly of being pregnant. The staff at the office was so amazing. Things seemed to just fall into place from that first visit, a month and a half later we were staring at a small black dot on an ultrasound screen and after five heartbreaking years we were able to announce that we would be having a baby. The last 7-8 months have been a whirlwind of growing, and new experiences. I feel so blessed every time I feel a kick or a movement, I am going to miss that feeling the most. But, we are so ready to meet her. I think our families are too. (We are so grateful for all the love and support that our wonderful families have given us!)

We are on the countdown.....see ya soon Kylie.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Things that make me smile

Here are just a few little things that make me smile........... when my husband calls me slim (which happens to be my nickname right now), when I get home from work and my dogs bring me squeak toys like a present, singing really loud in the car, my unborn babe kicking in response to her daddys voice, my mom calling me for no reason but just to chat, family jokes, christmas lights, seeing people do good things for no reason other than to be nice. I find that sometimes I am to caught up in things that dont really matter, so I did not get the house work done yesterday..........guess what its is still here today for me to get done. I am a blessed and lucky person. Take a moment to think of what makes you happy, it will put a smile on your face.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Me........if I am still in there.

Let's start by saying I am by no means a writer, I don't say things properly or spell well, I have terrible grammer and I am generally not funny. I thought this would be a great outlet to share my story and maybe make me feel better on days when I cannot seem to express what I am feeling. I also thought that it would be a good place to share pictures and tid bits about me and my family.
I woke up today knowing I was going to be in a mood, I dont know the reason for the mood I just knew I was in one. I have been though a lot in the last few years some things were self inflicted and others just poor luck or timing. I consider my life to be very good and most of the time I feel so blessed, but with that being said I also think that I have seen rough times. I am not looking for a pity party, just stating what is true. Today I am feeling a little lost. I feel like my life is all about being pregnant........which dont get me wrong I love. My husband and I have battled with infertility for almost five years and the miracle of being pregnant is more than I could ever hope for. It is all we have wanted for a long time and I am very happy. But.... where did I go? I feel like it is all I talk about, read about, get up in the morning and do. Today I told my husband that I could not remember anything I like to do before pregnacy.... thats not good I dont think. Maybe I have been stuck in the house for too many days in a row, I feel a little stir crazy, maybe I am just ready for her to be here so we can move forward into the next step. (I do feel a little mean and selfish stating these things out loud). Huh? I am not even sure what to say know. So here is what I decided to do, take the day off. I have played games on the computer, I started a blog, and I plan to do some yoga later. I am going to crank up some music and dance. I am going to silly and relish these few moments I have left to be me. Thanks babe for reminding me of the things I liked to do before I was pregnant.