Great days

Well, I have not wrote in a while, I guess in part because I dont feel as though anyone would find anything I had to say that interesting. But is seems my husband and a few others do like to read what I think. So here goes.
I guess some things have been going on. Summer is in full swing and we started it off with our annual Memorial day party, which is always nice. We grilled and had way to much food, we ate left overs for days. We played cornhole and rode 4-wheelers, well some of use put those 4-wheelers on thier sides. A few bumps and brusies later we all had a little laugh. We had a wonderful time, the weather was beautiful and the company fantastic.
In about two weeks we are leaving the baby girl with maw maw and paw paw and heading to Michigan Speedway to go to the Nascar race and we are so excited. Jr hopefully makes a repeat win here this year. It will be so nice to get away for a weekend.
The Tuesday after we return I will be starting my new job, which I am super thrilled about. I will be working in a Drs office in court house which is so much closer to home. More time with my baby girl and hubby of course.
Speaking of the cute little thing. So much has changed with her. For starters she is so vocal, cooing and laughing. She makes a mumm sound when she eats food. Oh yeah she is eating big girl foods, she loves pears and peas and just about everything we have given her. She sit in her highchair and eats at the table like a real little person, adorable. She also is playing with her toys and interacting so much. Just yesterday she rolled from her back to her belly, and when on her belly is really trying to figure out how she moves. I think it is such a miracle to see your child figure something out for the fist time. Put two and two together to realize how something works. Kylie has brought such peace and comfort to our lives. She was truley worth waiting for.

I am making a better effort to keep up with little writing thing. So hopefully see ya soon.

Where have I been

Where have I been? I ask myself that most days. It is amazing how quickly the day can pass by and you realize you have spent most of it playing dinner dash, feeding the babe and changing diapers. Then there are those great days were you feel as though you have conquered the world, you have cleaned the house, paid bills, feed the babe, changed diapers and managed to work out too! Its funny both types of days are my favorites. Although the days of me being home with no schedule are about to change. I am starting work next Tues, and I am super excited. My father and mother in law are being extremely generous and letting me work in their chiropractic office again. I like to think I am bringing some good to the office. I am very dependable, organized, loyal....ect I will stop tooting my horn. By I am excited, there is good things about working with family. Like being surrounded by people who love and care about you. It has a safe feeling. I am excited to get out of the house and make grown up conversation, not to say that Kylie is not a wonderful communicator with the smiles and the coos but you know what I mean. I will miss the one on one time that I get with her, but feel very blessed to have got to spend two months at home with her. I am also very blessed that my mom is going to be keeping Kylie most of the time. What a great gift for both my mom and Kylie.
I have been trying my hardest to make some positive life changes. Number one being to eat better. I hate vegetables and fruit. Well at least that is what I have been telling myself for years. I have found that I like several things I thought I did not. Wow right. I like grapes. I am also on the path to exercise. I was always a very active person, gymnast, competitive cheerleader, and anything else to keep me moving. Lately I have been a slug. I have tried to convince myself I just had a baby and I deserved some time off. Time off......over. I have been doing cardio and some straight training and I feel so wonderful. I love that feeling like I am taking good care of myself, and bonus I get to teach Kylie to be a health active human. Jason and I also recently returned to church, we had been away for a while with my schedule for cheer. I always feel so much better about myself when I am attending church, I always feel like the sermon was meant for me to hear. It is a great feeling. I want to be the best person I am capable of being. It is a lot of work but I know that it is worth it.

The basic everyday

It is amazing how my everyday has changed over the last month. I find that I easily lose track of what day it, mainly because for the most part I have no schedule and it doesn't matter what day it is. This in its own way is kinda nice, being that I am the type of person that used to live by a schedule... do this at this time and then go here...ect. It is funny because now I cant keep a schedule to save my life. When they say having a baby changes everything they mean it.

Speaking of Kylie is doing wonderful. She is getting bigger I can tell as she is starting to finally fill out her newborn clothing and diapers. She is becoming more alert during the day and evening, which is fun. I have noticed her following things more with her eyes and it seems she is trying to focus on things. When Jason calls her name she immediately looks at him, its so cute. She is making a stronger bond with him and this is helpful to me as he can now help calm her. {When she first came home, I was the only one that could do this, as I had nine months to bond with her prior to her arrival} Daddy is a huge help and even spent Saturday morning with her so that I could sleep in for an extra couple of hours. It is so much fun to have her around. We started reading this week, well I am doing the reading and she the listening but she loves it and I even get a few smiles when I sing her nursery rhymes. She laughed the other day in her sleep, it brought tears to my eyes, then I wondered what she may be dreaming about.

This past weekend we went to my parents house. We made a good attempt to take Kylie, Austin who is eight months old and Cody who is 6, to have their picture taken. It was a disaster. Cody did great, but the little ones took turns crying or fussing. About the time we would get one ready the other would start in. It was so funny, okay not funny at the time, funny now. We also were able to go to dinner with my brother, sister in law and my parents, plus all the kids. It was wonderful food and company. I really made for a great weekend.

Things here at the house have been kinda quite for the most part. Kylie and I spend our days hanging out, we watch Ellen at 3pm. Jason is running a night route this week so our schedule is a little off. It sucks him not being here at night, but we get several hours together during the day, trying to look on the bright side. And, hopefully it is only for this week. I have been searching and applying for jobs. Which is a little scary, the economy is so bad and I am not ready to leave her just yet. I would love to work part time maybe? Something will come along, I am a true beliver in everything happens for a reason. For the time being I will continue to savor the time with Kylie and Jason, and all the extra time I am getting to hang out with my family.

New Identity

My little smile!

So I took Kylie for her first Drs. appt. last Wednesday, everything was wonderful. But a funny thing occured to me while filing out her paperwork, it asked for my employer and for the first time since I was fourteen I dont have one. I am a stay at home mom. It was ackward to me. I am used to working and I always thought that staying home was not for me. I think I was a little wrong, so far it has been wonderful and such a blessing. I mean I get to get out of bed whenever Kylie and I want, I have no set schedule. When Kylie allows I putter around the house getting my laundry and cleaning done, and guess what, if I dont get it all done its there the next day!
Kylie is growing, well it sure seems like it to me. Her umbilical cord fell off two days ago, it was such a mile stone for me anyways. We also recieved her social security card in the mail, what a big girl. She is doing really great though. Jason and I took her out last friday and went on a date. We went to Stringtown Rd. and went shopping at Best Buy and then had dinner at Olive Garden, it was very nice and she did so good, sleeping all the way through dinner. I was very proud of her. It was nice for Jason and I to get out as well. Thanks to our parents for the gift cards that we instrumental in our evening out!

Baby girl Kylie McCoy Hatfield

She is here... well she has been here one week.....oh my gosh she is already one week old. The last five years of praying, crying, the heartbreak of one treatment after another not working, its all gone and was worth it in the the end. She is so perfect and everything we ever hoped for. I look at her when she is sleeping and just sit and cry, they are happy tears of course. She is so perfect! Jason and I are so blessed to have her, and to have the amazing family to share her with. Both mine and Jasons family has hardly been able to stay away. It has been so nice having family in and out of our house.. we live kinda far away in comparison to our other siblings so we dont get visits as regular.. which is okay and we understand the distance thing... I mean we chose to live out in the middle of no where. But is has been real nice to have everyone in. So the last few days Kylie and I have been on our own... Daddy had to go back to work (insert sad smiley). We have been doing pretty well. Lots of bonding time, feeding, sleeping and just staring at each other. Yesterday I called Jason to tell him that she had laughed in her sleep.. I wonder what she was dreaming about. It was such a mommy and daddy moment, like you see in the movies where the mom calls dad to tell him something cute the child did, I loved it. I imagined for five years what it would be like to be a mommy and someone asked me if it was all I thought it would be. Oh my yes and more. It took days to set in that I got to take her home and keep her. I was responsible for everything she need. That Jason and I had just had the biggest change ever in our lives. It is so cute to see us all cuddled in at night watching tv and being perfectly happy. I am a goer and a doer I thought staying at home would be hard, I have found the last week relaxing and it has given me time to reflect on things. I have loved it.

Tonight is Jasons birthday, he dosnt like to celebrate due to another awful event that happened on his birthday. I try every year to make it as special as possible, usually with little suscess. This year I will try again with his favorite dinner, steak and potatoes. I am setting a cute little table complete with beautiful pictures of his little girl and him. I plan to have a quite evening with just the three of us, enjoying one anothers company. I love you Jason and your baby girl says happy birthday daddy.

Update......on the bun.

I had a doctors appt today, and things are good. Afterwards I always call Jason (if he is unable to come) and tell him what the doctor said. Today without thinking the first thing I said was "were having a baby" and he kinda freaked a little, I quickly added not today, but soon. Poor thing, I did not mean to startle him, guess I should watch how I word things now that we are coming much closer to the day. Anyways, doctor stated today that she has dropped and that I am one centimeter. Both of which don't mean a lot.... but at least I am making some progress. I will take it.
I then went out to my mom's to get my hair trimmed, it is so nice that she does this for me. I find it to be one of the greatest things that my mom and I could just talk forever, and generally about anything and everything. I think it is a great day when you learn what a good friend your mother is. I think that this conclusion came to me when Jason and I moved to Texas a few years back. My mom and I would talk almost everyday and this is still true. I find it to be one of my favorite blessings. I am very lucky to have received a similar situation with my mother in law as well. I feel that because Jason and I have parents that we get along with and the get along with each other so well it make our marriage stronger and healthier. (Not saying that someone with a different situation has a weaker marriage, I just think this is one of the aspects that makes ours stronger, each to their own you know.)
This past weekend, Saturday was spent all day with Jason's family, eating playing games, and enjoying each others company. It was so wonderful. Jason and I live a good little distance from his brother and sister. This kinda stinks because we don't get to see as much of them as we would like, this goes for our niece and nephew as well. So getting the day with everyone was well needed. I had so much fun listening and watching the innocence of these two kids. It makes us long for Kylie to be here even more. My nephew, who loves to come to our house, mainly because we have 4-wheelers he loves to ride, told me that when Kylie came that he would teach her how to ride. I am under the impression that he thinks she is going to come ready to play and ride with him, instead of tiny and needing to grow. I love the way kids think. I really was a great time by all, and I am grateful for that day.

Lots going on

Well as in most peoples lives right now there is a lot going on. We are no exception, I guess. Weekly check up with Doc shows that I am still pregnant..... I am headed in the right direction, things are all good and on schedule. I have been having braxton hicks (fancy word for false contractions) they feel really funny and I generally laugh to myself when I get them. I love the feeling of being pregnant, its like you are never alone and you always have someone with you. When she moves I smile or laugh like its our own personal joke, I will miss that. But I am sure that when she arrives she will give me plenty of reasons to laugh and smile. So we have been playing her music at night to get her used to somethings. My sister in law Jenny made us some really great Cd's, they are lullaby versions of Pink Floyd (husbands fave),and Cold Play. We have found she loves to listen to Cold Play, whether it is the lullaby version or the real thing, she starts moving and squirming in there, it is so cute. And puts the biggest smile on Jason's face, its kinda funny she loves the music that was played at our wedding....

The next busy thing going on is Christmas, I cant believe it has come so quickly this year. I have to admit I am not as in the gift giving/receiving spirit of Christmas this year. I don't know if it is because I am pregnant, tired all the time, or if it is due to the overwhelming economical times that everyone is experiencing. I have just not been in the present spirit of Christmas. Now that is not to say that I am defiantly in the mood for Christmas, the lights and music, being with family and friends, Christmas eve service and all those things I am so in the mood for. Both sides of my families are doing something really cool this year. We are spending an entire day together, playing games, watching movies, snacking and just being together. I am real excited about this. We are going to Jason's parents in the morning, I feel like such a little kid............I cant wait. The two days that I spend with my families just hanging out is way better than a tree full of things that I don't really need.

So in other things that are keeping us busy, how about getting ready for all the changes that will so soon be taking place. I think that Jason and I are pretty set with all things here at the house. The nursery is done, although I am having trouble with two certain cats whom think that the large comfortable crib is now there new bed. I think Mica feels that after living in the house for three years we were kind enough to finish her room, she is in there constantly.... we have to work on that. Our bedroom has been redecorated and looks amazing, I am proud to say after owning the home for five years we have real curtains in our bedroom and not ones that I fashioned out of old bedsheets, not that there is anything wrong with using bedsheets, but it feels so grown up to have real curtains. We also put the pack in play in our room which is where Kylie will sleep for the first few months, this the cats also feel is there bed, and they are grateful we finally gave them a proper place to sleep in our room..........we have to work on that. The dogs are having a few issues with all the baby stuff. Well for the most part I am not sure they understand much of anything. The boxer Jasmine is having some anxiety issues. I am home a lot more than I have ever been before..........probably the reason I am blogging. Now every time I get ready to leave the house she follows me all around whining. The while I am gone she proceeds to... well she has a dog tear'um up party as hep would say. Lets just say that the score, if we were keeping one is Beaner -3 Snowmen-0. Its kinda sad I feel bad scolding her and it does no good. It is going to be a wild trip with all these animals and a new baby, I hope she can hold her own.

Anyway with every ones lives being so busy and full I will finish with a saying that I really like.

Lord, please help me not to be so busy making a living I forget to make a life.